How the hell did I get so broke?....... I meant I'm not so broke as to I can't even feed myself or pay for some small expenses of my own, but the things I lust after, my god. Seriously.....And I still wanna go for plastic surgery end of this year if the company never renew my contract with them after end of this september....The feeling suxs.....And I'm sure everyone in the company is feeling the heat too. And maybe it's cause I just started working not long ago this year and I never really keep track of my expenses and all that's why I ended up like this now or simply to say I'm a terrible spendthrift which I'm gonna admit I really am. I'm a sucker for makeup/brushes/bags......Anyway back to the topic if all else didn't work out like the way I plan well its either back to sephora and work my ass off in pushing sales again or I might join cabin crew for quick and easy money or simply do something else with my life instead of thinking of the impossible for now at least. It take sheer determination and hard work and I seriously doubt my ability to have both of this instill in me. But as a gurl sometimes you can't help but envy others for what they have like beauty/brains/fantastic luxury things.....Afterall give me a break I'm still human, no saint myself either. But I'm sure everyone think this way from time to time, if I was so rich I wouldn't be bother about anything in life concerning money, I will just worry about other things. But I one thing I learn is not to let the situation control you, you control the situation and the outcome you wanna have. Afterall money is not everything in this world, although it probably help if yah rich to began with.