So many deceit so many lies.
I am not a spy for my mum pls do not misunderstood okay. =.=".....
What she wants me to do I go and do. I try my best to help her as a duty of a daughter and as a sister.
You always say people don't trust you why not you go and reflect on why people don't?
I am neither a goody two shoes nor a dog who follows when mum barks. What she wants me to do I just go ahead and do my very best to assist her. What happens in between or after I don't really wanna know and don't even care to know.
Instead of whining all this shit to people or us and even being so careful why not go and really think and reflect on all those shit you create out in the first place?
When they say you set fire to the school toilet I didn't believe you would even dare to do that. But it's the truth. And then you came and tell others about how innocent you are and how you don't even know what the hell you were doing at that point of time. To me those are just excuses. It's the same logic as to oh I dono what the hell I am doing and in a fit of anger or moment I take a knife and stab you.
Again and again you have made mistakes, again and again we have forgiven you not 1o or 3 times but countless times. Everytime you say sorry we trust and believe you but you end up repeating the same mistakes again if not even bigger.
Looked I don't know why she don't wanna give back your phone or laptop, but now what she asked to check I just go and do it not cause I am her dog or I am a spy for her but as a duty of a sister and such as daughter. I just want peace in the family.
Looked you are not young anymore, have a goal, get a life, even if you wanna mix with those not very good company at least knows where they stands and who are you exactly in life and who are the ones will be there for you whenever you get into trouble and I meant real big trouble not small ones.
Be more mature and think. Maybe we don't really understand you well enough but maybe you yourself also don't really understand us or you yourself as well. And that we can't blame anybody, we been separated for so many years living in other nannies house until now suddenly brought back to this house. Although we are close but there are many more things we donno about each other. How much time do you spend with your friends and how much time we spend with you. See. Logic.
I just hope that do try to change your temper and all, you want mix around have more friends go ahead I don't mind. But do open your eyes wide and really looked and see who will be ultimately be there for you when you get into real big troubles be it now or in the near future, not all your friends not anybody, but us your sisters and brothers and family. We won't watch you die or let you die.
One advice from me I must tell you. You can never and I really meant never know a person too well. Not even being with him or her after 5-8 yrs of friendship. But we family will always be there for you. Blood is always thicker than water after all.
xoxo Val.
Hiya blog I'm Back. -.-
I dono whether to feel sad or happy whenever people notice my birthmark and asked me why.....=.=
At least I don't feel so upset now that people asked about it, not like when I was younger. Maybe cause I take hold of the comfort that after I go laser a few times and go for plastic surgery then I can regain a normal life? Or maybe it's just comforting myself that okay fineee watever over the years people notice and asked me about it or even comment on it until I'm numb to it?
Anyway I'm getting my life back on track, slowly but surely. It been 4 times since I went out to take a walk or meet up with some close friends since my severe acne dreaded attack on my poor face. I know this is nothing to be proud of, but at least give me some credit k to have the courage to finally accept the fact that it happen and go outside and get my life back on track k. So applause for me.....clap, clap, clap......
I remember when I was young I have never feel so insecure in myself. I heck-care what people think or even say about me and I will even reboot them back. But as I grow older by the year all this insecurities which has never happen before start appearing more and more over the years. Maybe it's cause i grow older, know what I want but am afraid to go get it, saw too much of those glossy mags and posters on billboards and letting it affect me and the way I view my beauty.
It must be soooo boring to hear me nowdays on the topic of surgery here and there right? =_="....same same I don't really want my blog to become a topic of surgery discussions. (Not that anybody read my blog anyway)
Quote to self- Stop living in the past, Stop thinking about what you wear whether it clashes or matches perfectly, Stop thinking about how others view you and Stop being insecure at some point in life. -_-"...
