Sunday, July 31, 2011 // 11:34 PM
I want a little bit of everything.
I realize most of the unfortunate events are all brought upon myself. I won't be sitting here pitying myself any longer after I finish this blog post and what I wanna write about.
Firstly if I wasn't so dam vain and use so many different kinds of products on my face, I won't be sitting here blogging I would instead be working half a year ago. Not to say I'm disfigured but I'm considered not quite yet cause of the strong strong accutane meds i'm taking (over half a year now). So out of 100% i would say my face has recover by 90%. ( 10% is when i finally hit my targeted dosage and the redness has go down completely)
You know.....sometimes some things are hard to put to words. I don't even and can't even describe the feeling I'm feeling right now. So many words for me to use but I can't say a word. Look into my eyes feel my soul through it and then I guess finally you would understand what I been through and why I can't even say a thing.
End of post.
Beauty is something that Shines from thee Inside, it's Brimming with People Personality&Lifestyles
Sunday, July 17, 2011 // 8:10 AM
I be needing a very long break, clear my turbulance mind and come back a better and stronger person. So meanwhile I won't be blogging( not that anyone come read my blog too lol). I won't even be pitting anymore quotes on Facebook cause all I write nowadays are rubbish and uninspiring and sadly to say vey sad and nostalgic. I'm not a bad person, I just need to work on my flaws and strengthen my good points. And I believe I can become the person I eventually was born to be. Amen.
Beauty is something that Shines from thee Inside, it's Brimming with People Personality&Lifestyles
Friday, July 15, 2011 // 9:20 AM
I feel so worn out and tired. I know I shouldn't even say all this disheartening words. Especially since I am doing nothing now, not working, not studying, just slacking around the house. But I just can't help it or prevent it. It really depresses me to see myself becoming like that on days like this.
I'm a strong girl. I know I am. I'm all tough out on the outside. But inside.....I'm so weak and vulnerable. Humans--->fragile creatures. Although I say I don't envy, but inside every bone in my body I envy to the death. I need some TLC, I know I am not alone in this world, but somehow I feel like it.......
I won't want 5 years down the road and here I am still writing about all this sad/nostalgic post. I want 5 years down the road I be so busy that I won't even be able to blog or even when I have the spare time to blog I'll be blogging about my career how fulfill/meaningful my life is, not this whining b*tch whom emerge out of nowhere and take over my life.
God pls Bless Me with the Strength/Courage/Perseverance/Determination to get and really get out of this rut I stuck myself in during this half year of resting at home. In chirst name I pray Amen.
Beauty is something that Shines from thee Inside, it's Brimming with People Personality&Lifestyles
