It has been so goddam long since I blog anything. And yes dear old blog I'm here to rant again and again about how fat and ugly I am . How insecure I am in my poor old body which is only 19 this year going on 20 next year.
I gain alot of weight this year and u won't even fcuking believe how much I really gain in this 10 months of staying at home since after my acne attack this early jan. I feel strip away of every thing I know and own. I feel reborn but empty inside. Is like I dono who the hell I am anymore. Looking at the mirror now I change so much in terms of my looks and body and hair. I have reach my target dose a few month back like I think 1 or 2 months back? And maybe it's little old insecure me but I find lots of those pesky small small blemishes which are not obvious to the naked eye unless you peer inside the mirror under the light so closely. I'm thinking of going back to good old doctor thng and ask him whether is there any form of meds I can take to prevent even the slightest blemishes to Not form on my poor old disfigure face anot lol. Btw doctor thng is not that old at all he very kind and good and takes time always to and all my dumb ques this and that. I sound like some old freak who is like bloody whining everyday when there are people more concern about how to earn more money and other worldly affairs . I know I keep telling everyone beauty is just skin deep what matters is your inner heart and self which is so true. But honestly I'm scarred and scare stiff shit of having another even small blemishes or pimples on my face. I just can't bear that thought anymore and you will know why of I show u the before and process and after pics of the time when I was taking my meds. Anyway that's all I think I gotta rant about today. Maybe I will really post up pics of my acne process for all those to see and 1 feel good about themselves, 2 pity me that time and now, 3 be in awe of my bravery and witness what the amazing accutane can do for your skin.
Till then Ciaos.