I feel so worn out and tired. I know I shouldn't even say all this disheartening words. Especially since I am doing nothing now, not working, not studying, just slacking around the house. But I just can't help it or prevent it. It really depresses me to see myself becoming like that on days like this.
I'm a strong girl. I know I am. I'm all tough out on the outside. But inside.....I'm so weak and vulnerable. Humans--->fragile creatures. Although I say I don't envy, but inside every bone in my body I envy to the death. I need some TLC, I know I am not alone in this world, but somehow I feel like it.......
I won't want 5 years down the road and here I am still writing about all this sad/nostalgic post. I want 5 years down the road I be so busy that I won't even be able to blog or even when I have the spare time to blog I'll be blogging about my career how fulfill/meaningful my life is, not this whining b*tch whom emerge out of nowhere and take over my life.
God pls Bless Me with the Strength/Courage/Perseverance/Determination to get and really get out of this rut I stuck myself in during this half year of resting at home. In chirst name I pray Amen.
