Somewhere in me I feel a little jealousy inside. And that happens whenever my parents praise other people kids or comparing me to someone else or calling me useless. Also happens whenever I see people somewhere in life now and here I am nowhere in life. I can't even see the path I have to walk. I can only stumble around in the dark. As in for now.
I know I can never be the perfect daughter they badly wanted. Gracious, beautiful, studious, unselfish and gentle. I can use money, lots of money to achieve prettyness. But I can't use money to buy all thee other things they so badly wanted in a daughter.
I know nobody can be perfect. At some point of time every kid wish they were their parents perfect child. But at some point of life we will always do things to upset,anger them.
But I believe things will change for the better. We can only go forward and see. Although I am not where I wanna be now, but I am glad I am not where I use to be.
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